The Life of Someone

Is has been a month since I started my internship on March and so far....things have go as I had hope for...the things I have been doing right now are not so engineering related except reading and understand the CAD drawing but other than that...non of it is engineering which kinda makes me worry... If this continues...i might fail my internship because of doing non-engineering stuffs...everyday I keep having the thoughts of "I AM SO SCREWED IF THIS CONTINUES" and "IT GONNA BE OKAY (which is not...LOL)". This is very stressful and tiring. Some part of me is thankful that I still have my workout training sessions. At least there is something to distract me for awhile. Everything appears smooth on the surface but on the inside, it is not. It like the meme where someone looks fine on the outside but dying on the inside. And the worse part is....that is not the only thing I am worry of... The other part of brain is thinking whether I should lessen my commitme...

I had my first centralized training in dragon boat team at near end of November. It was quite intense and fun. Waking up early in the morning at 5am to train till 9am and have another session at 4pm till 6pm. It was quite a tiring week and we all are preparing ourselves for the upcoming local competition and international competition.  Everything seems alright...well...not actually...I would say I mess up some parts of my commitment at other places. A bad conflict happen between me and D (This is just a random letter to replace his name), it started when I mess up my commitment and my friend is very angry with my commitment issue. We went into a room to talk privately and he started to scold and shout at me. Deep down in mind I know that I am the one who is wrong but I feel very sad because of hearing the words that is spoken from him. It was hurtful and I couldn't believe he said that to me. You might be asking why am I sad when people scold me...well..to be honest, if a norm...