I just realized I lied to myself...

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Recently there is a lot of tension building among each other in the community...
I was also one of those who make the assumptions and sometimes gossip...
After hearing all that has happen, I was angry or I should say furious...
Was planning on how to resolve everything in the next meeting...thinking of every questions that could force her to tell the truth and strike her with everything I know...
I didn't  realize that I was consume by my anger...keep thinking about it...
Every second, minutes, hours, days even when I was about to sleep...
One day after hearing some of the explanation...I don't know whether what I have thought in my mind was true or not...
It was true that some of my assumption was not based on any evidence...
As I was doubting...I suddenly realized that I don't want to do this...I don't want to be responsible of what is gonna happen after the meeting...
I just realize I lied to myself...
For this one week, I thought I was doing the right thing...thinking of a plan to resolve tension...
But the truth is I was already consume by anger, the anger to want to destroy others because of their mistakes they made...
Then I realize...is time to do this with a different approach!
I am not a judge, I am not a peace keeper, I am not a middle man...
But one think I know for sure is I am a believer of Christ and I will settle this in way that reflects what has God do in my life.
To God be the Glory!
Amen.

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